Strange dreams from a strange mind

So recently I've been having really strange dreams. Can't seem to really make sense of the madness which causes me to wake up troubled and bothered. There is no rhyme or reason to them, and they are all full of random events. Maybe it's just a reflection of how I feel my life is going. Some say that's what happens in our dream state, it's our sub-conscience showing us how we really view our world. If that's so, I am a sexually repressed, relationship impaired individual, who wants to do right but always screws up (just telling you how the dreams are going). I guess I should talk to someone about them. I'm tired of waking up with migraines and stress in my shoulders. The crazy thing about all of this is I have no real stresses going on. I'm winding down some things in my life and starting to really focus on what matters. But maybe there is one thing that's getting to me, I have a feeling I know what it is but at times its slips away, like in a vaguely remembered dream. Who knows....but what I do know, I'm going to book a pampering day for myself and maybe I can let whatever it is go (hopefully).

What are your dreams telling you? You should seriously look into it. Most times it's God trying to talk to us, and other times it's just the junk you encounter from the day reprocessing itself. Either way you should pay attention to your dreams, especially the ones you remember.

Being Happy

When I woke up this morning I prayed for God to just let me be happy today. Then a thought came to my mind, what is real happiness. It couldn't be just about paying bills, because I can do that with my eyes closed. Was it about having a boyfriend, ha that's a funny notion. I have been searching for it but I know what it is. Happiness is when I'm with my family and we are laughing about something that happened in the past. Happiness is the moment when I moved into my house and all I had was a big screen tv and my fabulous recliner. Happiness is when my little sister and I walk down a hallway and people say "dang yall really do look alike". Happiness is what you make it. You may not always feel it, especially on those days you wake up and don't want to do anything, but it is what is. You find the things that make your heart leap, your eyes well up with tears of joy and laughter,things that make you smile so hard you show gums. You hold onto things like this and you will always have true happiness.

Live your Life

This evening I found out someone I knew committed suicide this morning. It hurt my heart because I never knew that he was in that much pain and anguish. All I could think of is could I have said something to move him away from this drastic outcome. Then I think about the times I have had that same thought. The thought that all I have to do is this one thing and all my problems will go away. It's usually a passing thought because I think of all the people who I would hurt, the lives I would miss, the things I would not be able to accomplish. I think my fighting spirit always gets in the way of me losing my life. I guess my faith in God has always kept me pushing. I'm sad a friend lost his life, but it also makes me cherish mine. No matter who leaves me, or calls me weak, or hates me, or hurts my feelings will never push me to the edge. I am stronger than what people think and I will triumph no matter what. My life is what I make it and since I know I'm going to die one day, I will choose to make the best of it!!!